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missroseroseI have a serious Internet-crush on Grumpycat. I especially love that even though she looks so angry and pissed off, she's actually a really sweet and happy kitten. I think bad moods are often like that; intimidating at first, but ultimately far less so than we had feared from their appearance.
Which doesn't make being in the midst of them any easier. I'm not exactly grumpy today, but I do feel restless. Some of it's frustration at being broke, some of it's loneliness and a sense of isolation - it's Saturday night and I have no real social options. (Which is at least partly my fault - this being Bisbee, chances are there's music or a dance or *something* going on downtown. But I don't have any close friends who're going, I'm not really in a mood to chat with strangers, and hanging around by myself doesn't hold a lot of appeal.) A lot of it is irritation at myself for a complete lack of motivation; I've had a whole day in which I could have been practicing guitar, or writing a story, or exercising, or doing any number of things to better myself. And the most I've managed was to clean the kitchen and make food for Brian and me, as he's feeling poorly and wasn't up to it himself. (Though the tuna melts were tasty. Also, I now have more than a dozen spice-cake cupcakes with cream cheese frosting, if anyone wants to help me eat them. I only actually wanted one, plus some of the batter while I was making them.)
Maybe I'll just call it a punt day, as one of my friends terms them, and go snuggle with some cats. Hopefully by tomorrow the cloud will have passed. Or at least I'll feel more up to fighting it.
Which doesn't make being in the midst of them any easier. I'm not exactly grumpy today, but I do feel restless. Some of it's frustration at being broke, some of it's loneliness and a sense of isolation - it's Saturday night and I have no real social options. (Which is at least partly my fault - this being Bisbee, chances are there's music or a dance or *something* going on downtown. But I don't have any close friends who're going, I'm not really in a mood to chat with strangers, and hanging around by myself doesn't hold a lot of appeal.) A lot of it is irritation at myself for a complete lack of motivation; I've had a whole day in which I could have been practicing guitar, or writing a story, or exercising, or doing any number of things to better myself. And the most I've managed was to clean the kitchen and make food for Brian and me, as he's feeling poorly and wasn't up to it himself. (Though the tuna melts were tasty. Also, I now have more than a dozen spice-cake cupcakes with cream cheese frosting, if anyone wants to help me eat them. I only actually wanted one, plus some of the batter while I was making them.)
Maybe I'll just call it a punt day, as one of my friends terms them, and go snuggle with some cats. Hopefully by tomorrow the cloud will have passed. Or at least I'll feel more up to fighting it.
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Date: 2013-02-24 06:01 am (UTC)