Near-midnight ramblings...
Sep. 25th, 2003 11:50 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
missroseroseToday was a good day, for the most part. Spent most of it lazing around when I should've been doing homework...oh well. On the plus side, I went through three hours of training at the library. It seems pretty much the same as the Rasmuson Library in Fairbanks, if only a quarter of the size. The Egan library itself has much nicer architecture, though - more flowing and curved, less boxy. And the elevator is much less scary.
Went out tonight to see "Once Upon a Time in Mexico." Was rather unimpressed, but then, action flicks have never really been my thing. On the plus side, though, Salma Hayek was damn sexy...even more so than she was in "Frida," where she gets nekked. I think it had to do with the flowing clothes...mmm. Very nicely done. So I guess the whole thing wasn't quite a bust. Pun unintended. =)
On the other hand, I seem to be in a rather odd mood, partially instigated by action-movie-related boredom and partially by my whole "situation." I've been finding myself worrying about the future more lately, and this is (for me) strange. See, I very firmly believe that the way to happiness is to enjoy yourself in the moment you're in, and not worry too much about the past or the future. That isn't to say you shouldn't reflect on the past, or plan for the future, just that you shouldn't let it rule the present moment of your life. Everything, really, goes in circles - time is only linear because we envision it as such. The moon waxes and wanes; the seasons go on in their order; humans live, die, and are reincarnated if they so choose; the Earth circles around the sun every year. Even the universe, which scientists tell us is constantly expanding, will eventually begin to contract. Everything cycles back and forth; ten years from now, nothing that you're worried about now will really make a difference, either because it's unimportant or because the decisions are already made. So I don't see the point in spending huge amounts of time worrying about the future.
Unfortunately, sometimes I do get stressed in spite of myself, and I lose my sense of happiness in the moment that I usually carry so well. In this case it's a combination of homework load and the love life problems detailed below; in other times, it's more because of guilt over the past. Either way, it still means that I'm not as happy as usual, and this bothers me. It'll be over eventually, though, and in the meantime, I suppose I can try to regain my sense of balance over the past and future.
Or maybe I could just get my homework done. =)
@->--Rose
Went out tonight to see "Once Upon a Time in Mexico." Was rather unimpressed, but then, action flicks have never really been my thing. On the plus side, though, Salma Hayek was damn sexy...even more so than she was in "Frida," where she gets nekked. I think it had to do with the flowing clothes...mmm. Very nicely done. So I guess the whole thing wasn't quite a bust. Pun unintended. =)
On the other hand, I seem to be in a rather odd mood, partially instigated by action-movie-related boredom and partially by my whole "situation." I've been finding myself worrying about the future more lately, and this is (for me) strange. See, I very firmly believe that the way to happiness is to enjoy yourself in the moment you're in, and not worry too much about the past or the future. That isn't to say you shouldn't reflect on the past, or plan for the future, just that you shouldn't let it rule the present moment of your life. Everything, really, goes in circles - time is only linear because we envision it as such. The moon waxes and wanes; the seasons go on in their order; humans live, die, and are reincarnated if they so choose; the Earth circles around the sun every year. Even the universe, which scientists tell us is constantly expanding, will eventually begin to contract. Everything cycles back and forth; ten years from now, nothing that you're worried about now will really make a difference, either because it's unimportant or because the decisions are already made. So I don't see the point in spending huge amounts of time worrying about the future.
Unfortunately, sometimes I do get stressed in spite of myself, and I lose my sense of happiness in the moment that I usually carry so well. In this case it's a combination of homework load and the love life problems detailed below; in other times, it's more because of guilt over the past. Either way, it still means that I'm not as happy as usual, and this bothers me. It'll be over eventually, though, and in the meantime, I suppose I can try to regain my sense of balance over the past and future.
Or maybe I could just get my homework done. =)
@->--Rose
