Insecurity sets in...

[missroserose]

Been spending much of the day training the new girl, and I'm sure she'll be able to fill my shoes just fine. Not that there was ever much doubt - this isn't exactly a tough job - but it's always a tad disheartening to see how easily people can get along without you. Still, I'm glad to be leaving the position in good hands.

So here I am, feeling vaguely at loose ends. I only have a few more days at this job, during which I'll ideally be becoming more and more superfluous. I can't help but feel a tad insecure; this job has been such a big part of my life for three years now, and yet one I've took almost totally for granted. Moving forward will be a good thing, I know. But why does the "moving forward" part inevitably have to include the painful "leaving behind" part?

Ah well. Enough with the maudlin sentimentality. I'll miss this, but it's time to square my shoulders, sack up, and move on. Things will be the better for it, I'm sure.

Comments

[cyranocyrano.livejournal.com]

**hugs**
It's like the philosopher says: Don't know whatcha got til it's gone. Um. Or maybe he says Every rose has its thorn. I didn't actually pay attention during Philosophy class.

[roseneko.livejournal.com]

Hee. I'm told you don't actually have to pay much attention in Philosophy class, which is why it's the major of choice for potheads. :) And while both of those are true, I don't think either one quite applies - I have known for a while that I was lucky to have a job that I liked and with people I enjoyed working with. But at the same time, I wasn't happy staying here with nothing to challenge me. Is there a song title that refers to that particular quandary?

[cyranocyrano.livejournal.com]

That sounds a little complex for a pop song. Maybe an indie movie.

[onionhead.livejournal.com]

I'm reminded of a part in the movie Sid & Nancy where the lame-o record company guy or whomever is telling John about his song with a "punky, a punky sort of feel" -- I want a job, I want a real job (one that pays) I want a job.. one that satisfies.. my artistic needs...

Nothing to do with your situation, just thought of that. Don't mind me :)

I'm gonna swing by and grab those DVDs tomorrow!

[roseneko.livejournal.com]

*laughs* Somehow, I have a hard time reconciling the idea of "real job" and "artistic needs". This (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_3l2Vo1z260) is one of my favorite songs on the subject. :)

You might want to come by after 10:00. I took them home with me, and I've got an eye appointment tomorrow morning, so I won't be there until then. Anytime between then and noon, and 1:00 and 5:00, should work fine. I'll introduce you to the new receptionist!