Winter's here, mostly...

[missroserose]

First real snow of the season, tonight. Beautiful, though it's going to make driving downtown a bit tricky tomorrow. And all the tire places are going to be backed up out the wazoo for the next couple of weekends. Which doesn't really matter, since I can't afford snow tires at the moment, anyway. I'll just have to hope it doesn't get icy.

I've discovered that my passenger's-side car door is arthritic. It tends to squeal rather loudly while being open or shut when the temperature dips below a certain point. Ironically enough, it wasn't squealing this evening, despite the snow - it's been really cold the last couple of nights because the sky's been clear. Whereas it's now snowing, but warmer. Go figure.

Is it bad that I went outside a day or two ago, got hit in the face with a blast of 31 degree Farenheit air, and thought, "It's time to move someplace warmer"? I mean, I lived in Barrow over a winter. 85 freaking degrees below zero, not to mention wind chill. I'm turning into a wuss. =s

Nesting urges are getting more frequent. Dunno if this has to do with insecurity regarding my breakup with Ryan, or the weather suddenly getting colder, or something entirely different...

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[rapier.livejournal.com]

I forgot momentarily that you live where you do. My first thought was "Wait, wtf, some place has snow before Colorado does? Impossible!" But then my brain started working again.

[errant-variable.livejournal.com]

I think it's weather or other related. I just bought a desk, and another chair, and am planning to fix the lightbulbs later today. When *I* nest... yeah...

regarding nesting

[(Anonymous)]

Hi Rose.
Just checking in on you and seeing how you are in the great white north. Nesting urges - sounds healthy especially given the past few posts. At the risk of being passe - when you trim/prune a rose, you cull the dead wood and the diseased limbs and by doing so - concentrate the rose's energy on healthy growth with the intent to build strength and produce blooms - in time. So it is to be expected in a way. Insecurity is not a bad thing. It results in choices. You must choose to either rely on your own self or seek assistance from another and perhaps loose track of the goal along the way. My wise friend tells me, jump, and the universe will provide the net. Just a variation of HAVE FAITH. Faith in yourself. In whatever you find strength in.
Welcome to the pruning club. Everyone should get here eventually if they are truly working to become higher beings rather then sheep. I dated some folks who ended up being lessons to learn from. Some good, some bad, some mutual beneficial, some mutually destructive. And one day in the midst of a mildly destructive relationship I woke up and said hey, if I am not happy with myself - really happy with myself - no one else is going to make me happy. Nor should they. The big aha moment:
Hey, I am responsible for my own happiness.
I pruned the last destructive relationship from my life. And took time to concentrate on finding out again who I was, what I wanted to keep, what I wanted to prune, what I needed, and taking care of my needs instead of loosing myself in the next great rescue operation. And one day when I was not looking or even thinking about relationships or having anyone in my life again, I did meet someone. I know, if I had not taken the time to grow and get grounded in my adult self - I would not have been ready to have a relationship like this. It's worth the pain, the self-doubt, the examination at the pore level of everything in your life you want keep or toss and walk away from forever.

So nest. Garden. Contemplate. Clean house, hearth and heart. Feel free to dump the garbage, cultivate new aspirations, try on different thoughts. You will only become more you in the process.

The road to happiness is paved with imperfect insight that can jar the step or lame the foot, but one may meet companions of joy along the way and not note the distance traveled.

Good luck to you and stay warm.
Martha in Erie CO.

Re: regarding nesting

[roseneko.livejournal.com]

Hi Martha,

Thanks for the advice - it sounds a lot like what I've been finding out in the past few years. I'll definitely keep it in mind.

I hope you won't feel offended if I ask - Do I know you? I'm really horrible at keeping names/faces straight, and the only people I know offhand in Colorado are my grandmother/cousins...Just sort of wondering where you came from, is all. ;)

@->--Rose

Hi Rose!

[cryogaijin.livejournal.com]

So yer getting some snow down there, eh? As usual we got our first snow up here the last weekend of september. Currently have about 6" on the ground.

Things are hectic for me currently, finishing up my last two semesters of school (Hopefully!) and getting everything in order.

I've been thinking a lot lately about getting a pet. . . I'd rather like to get a cat, I think.

Anyhow, this is proof, wench, that I do indeed check your journal on occasion. Catch you later!

Nice to see you. ;)

[roseneko.livejournal.com]

Hey Greg. How's it going? =)

I'm rather glad that we don't have any accumulated snow yet, being as I can't afford snow tires for another three weeks at least. It's difficult enough when the roads are damp and then the temperature drops below freezing during the night, which happens a lot around here...

Good luck finding a cat. I wish you the best. ;)

@->--Rose

P.S. I just finished sewing a shawl to go with that dragon dress you bought me. I'm taking two Brians to the opera (small group here is doing a production, and dammit, I want to wear that dress again, especially now that I actually fill it out). It's going to be one helluva fun night...when I showed Juneau-Brian (as opposed to Thelonius-Brian from LA, who'll be visiting) the dress, his comment was something like "It has to be against some sort of international gender warfare law to wear that."

So, thanks again. I'll be sure to post pictures...of their expressions too, if I can manage it. =D

Re: Nice to see you. ;)

[cryogaijin.livejournal.com]

Oh c'mon rose! Even your DAD drooled at you in that dress.

Re: Nice to see you. ;)

[roseneko.livejournal.com]

Yes, well, try not to get me started on my dad. Please.