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[missroserose]

I was just watching an episode of Six Feet Under, and there was one line that really stood out. When asked why he wants to be an artist, a character responds, "Because I have no choice. If I can't create art, I will die."

Another character scoffs at that as an "infantile notion", but infantile or not, melodramatic or not, I know that feeling. That's how I feel about singing. About touching people in general. If I can't sing, if I can't make people want to laugh or cry or gasp or love, if I can't make them want to live, then I will die. I don't know how it will come about, but I just know that that's what I have to do.

If I can't...I will die.

It's that simple.

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And that, my dear...

[eventhewaves.livejournal.com]

... is how we know you're definitely a creative type. The creative type -- any creative type -- has to create as an integral part of their profession, or else they'll just... wither away and become small and bitter and useless. Happens a lot. All of those "dream deferred" people you see floating around, unhappy, discontent, working shit jobs and feeling miserable and worthless.

So if I have any advice at all, it's this: don't think so much about the "If I can't, I will die" part of it, and just frickin' *do* it. Take your lessons. Sing. Come up with the melodies, plot the harmonies, write the songs. Browbeat me into helping you with the musical. All of that jazz. =) (Or Broadway show tuneage, as the case may be.)

For what it's worth, I myself to have the utmost confidence that you'll be able to do it -- and I've still never heard you sing a single serious note. You have the desire, the longing, the drive, *and* the personality to *make* people laugh, and cry, and love, and all of those things. All you have to do now is, basically, do it. Make it so, Number One.

Or pick your favorite from Johnny Quatrain's Flammable Parchment of Platitudes. =)

> It's that simple.

Aye, and that heavy. But you *will* make it, dammit!

--Brian

[frogjimmy.livejournal.com]

This may sound like a strange request, but do you have a recording of you singing? I would love to hear it.

I agree with the creativity statement. Hell, it's why I'm in web design, and I wouldn't have it any other way. I get to make iconic art (read: logos) that people see. How great is that? It's technical and visual. I truly feel sorry for people who cannot creatively express themselves, either due to circumstance or apathy. I write bad comedy all the time. I work on websites for free. I'll play music and I've recently tried to compose (it's crap, but a start).

I wish you all the best in your professional and creative endeavours.

[roseneko.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the good wishes, and I'm glad you've found work in a field you enjoy - that's more than most people in America can say, I'm afraid.

I don't have any recordings of myself at the moment, and I'm a bit rusty (not being able to sing has put rather a dent in my practice schedule...stupid cold) but I'll see what I can do over the next week or two. Mostly it's a matter of practicing a song until I feel I can at least sing it decently (stupid perfectionism), and then finding somebody with a microphone. So yeah...we'll see.

[cyranocyrano.livejournal.com]

I'm not quite that bad off. (Not quite that artistic?)
If I don't 'do it', if I don't translate the idea into reality, it wanders around in my head bugging me and bugging me until I go mad or I give up and set it free.

[(Anonymous)]

You know, every time I stumble across you on a mutual aquaintance' friends page, it amazes me to what extent our lives run parallel...
It's really rather ironic, both that and how much I keep running into your journal, or other semblances of you, all things considered.
~"Elise"

[roseneko.livejournal.com]

Considering what a small state Alaska is, and how many mutual acquaintances we have, it doesn't seem all that odd...I've kind of made a conscious decision not to seek you out, however. Not hard, being as you're not up here anymore.

How, exactly, do you mean by our lives running parallel?