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Illness and momentum
Mar. 15th, 2014 11:35 amWhat the heck is it with Midwest colds travelling in packs? This is the second time I've gotten ill since moving here, and both times I've had a weeklong bug, followed by a few days of feeling better, followed by another bug - this one Brian brought back with him from Indianapolis.
Needless to say, I've not gotten a lot done this past week; Tuesday/Wednesday/Thursday were mostly sleeping and reading and sucking down Breathe Deep tea at a rate to keep Yogi Teas in business single-handedly. I have made it to yoga three times this week, which I'm pleased about - Monday I was feeling fine and went to the evening class, Wednesday I went to the morning class despite having very low energy, figuring I could always take child's pose if it got to be too intense. Somewhat to my surprise, I made it all the way through without hardly having to struggle; I certainly wasn't all the way there mentally but I'm familiar enough with all the poses that I didn't have to think much as we moved, and I guess I'm stronger than I realized. I'm definitely starting to acquire a bit of upper-body and core strength - I can do side plank without wobbling, even on my historically-weaker many-times-broken left arm. And the dozen-odd chatauranga flows (plank to low-plank to upward-dog to downward-dog) they have us do each class are getting notably easier.
I'm less pleased about my artistic output, or lack thereof. I've barely been playing guitar or writing anything at all. Nor have I managed to get an acting resume put together for the folks at BoHo. (When I took Brian to see Amadeus yesterday, the company secretary accosted me on the way out and kindly told me how much she was looking forward to receiving my information. Agh, guilt.) Some of that's attributable to the fact that I've been recovering, true, but I also feel like I'm losing momentum. I need to find some way to kickstart myself, I think. I envy Miles Vorkosigan, some days - it's all about keeping the momentum going. The minute you slow down, your fears and self-consciousness and depression all catch up. Would that I were as driven to do so as he is.
Needless to say, I've not gotten a lot done this past week; Tuesday/Wednesday/Thursday were mostly sleeping and reading and sucking down Breathe Deep tea at a rate to keep Yogi Teas in business single-handedly. I have made it to yoga three times this week, which I'm pleased about - Monday I was feeling fine and went to the evening class, Wednesday I went to the morning class despite having very low energy, figuring I could always take child's pose if it got to be too intense. Somewhat to my surprise, I made it all the way through without hardly having to struggle; I certainly wasn't all the way there mentally but I'm familiar enough with all the poses that I didn't have to think much as we moved, and I guess I'm stronger than I realized. I'm definitely starting to acquire a bit of upper-body and core strength - I can do side plank without wobbling, even on my historically-weaker many-times-broken left arm. And the dozen-odd chatauranga flows (plank to low-plank to upward-dog to downward-dog) they have us do each class are getting notably easier.
I'm less pleased about my artistic output, or lack thereof. I've barely been playing guitar or writing anything at all. Nor have I managed to get an acting resume put together for the folks at BoHo. (When I took Brian to see Amadeus yesterday, the company secretary accosted me on the way out and kindly told me how much she was looking forward to receiving my information. Agh, guilt.) Some of that's attributable to the fact that I've been recovering, true, but I also feel like I'm losing momentum. I need to find some way to kickstart myself, I think. I envy Miles Vorkosigan, some days - it's all about keeping the momentum going. The minute you slow down, your fears and self-consciousness and depression all catch up. Would that I were as driven to do so as he is.
