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Well, I'm signed up for classes, finally. I spent a fair amount of time with the listings of various required courses, and came up with this - I've almost finished with the General Education Requirements; I'm missing two classes, both of which I'm taking this semester - "History of Art I" for the art requirement and "Survey of Physics" for the lab course requirement. That last isn't one that I'm exactly looking forward to; I've put off taking the lab course for two years, however, and it's taught by the same woman who taught the Astronomy course last semester, so I guess it can't be all bad; she was a pretty nice teacher, and I got an A in Astronomy.
I've got other stuff too, though - "Survey of American Literature I", which is a requirement for an English degree, and "Acting I". I took the latter course my first semester, when I dropped everything but the one class; unfortunately, I also have a C in it, which wouldn't be great if I end up going into a conservatory. So if I get a better grade this time around, it'd be replaced and I'd have a better transcript. Also, when I get down to Juneau, I plan to sign up for a couple credits' worth of singing lessons.
Now here's the thing. That's about 15 credits total, including a lab course (which, I'm told, is about twice as much work as a normal course), plus working at the University library. I'm kind of wavering on whether I actually want to keep all of these. The last time I tried this, it was my first semester, and things didn't work out so well (see previous footnote about Acting class). But then, my first semester was also the first time I'd been out on my own, my first time getting hit with college-style homework, before I learned to cope, etc. etc. I've intentionally kept my course load light (part time or just barely full time) since then, and I've done fine, so I'm wondering if I should increase it now - if I manage to get 15 credits next semester, I'll be right on the edge of junior standing. But on the other hand, I'm really not certain I want to have that much work ahead of me, and I know I don't want to do the same thing I did my first semester - get overwhelmed and nearly fail everything.
I'm also wondering why it is that I'm seriously considering doing all of this. Part of it is because I'm curious as to whether I'm able to do it, albeit a bit afraid of the answer. But I'm also wondering if perhaps I'm not trying to avoid the rest of my life - relationships, social life, etc. I knew a girl once whom I liked a lot, but who said she was "not relationship material" because she never had any time. And she never had any time because she was constantly taking an insane credit load and stressing out about it all. And, of course, she totally failed in "avoiding relationship drama", as she put it, and ended up with twice the stress. And given my recent doubts about my relationship with Ryan (more on that some other time), am I just trying to avoid having to spend time with him?
I've still got two months or so to figure this out, so...I guess we'll see.
Plus I sound like shit when I sing. *sigh*
I've got other stuff too, though - "Survey of American Literature I", which is a requirement for an English degree, and "Acting I". I took the latter course my first semester, when I dropped everything but the one class; unfortunately, I also have a C in it, which wouldn't be great if I end up going into a conservatory. So if I get a better grade this time around, it'd be replaced and I'd have a better transcript. Also, when I get down to Juneau, I plan to sign up for a couple credits' worth of singing lessons.
Now here's the thing. That's about 15 credits total, including a lab course (which, I'm told, is about twice as much work as a normal course), plus working at the University library. I'm kind of wavering on whether I actually want to keep all of these. The last time I tried this, it was my first semester, and things didn't work out so well (see previous footnote about Acting class). But then, my first semester was also the first time I'd been out on my own, my first time getting hit with college-style homework, before I learned to cope, etc. etc. I've intentionally kept my course load light (part time or just barely full time) since then, and I've done fine, so I'm wondering if I should increase it now - if I manage to get 15 credits next semester, I'll be right on the edge of junior standing. But on the other hand, I'm really not certain I want to have that much work ahead of me, and I know I don't want to do the same thing I did my first semester - get overwhelmed and nearly fail everything.
I'm also wondering why it is that I'm seriously considering doing all of this. Part of it is because I'm curious as to whether I'm able to do it, albeit a bit afraid of the answer. But I'm also wondering if perhaps I'm not trying to avoid the rest of my life - relationships, social life, etc. I knew a girl once whom I liked a lot, but who said she was "not relationship material" because she never had any time. And she never had any time because she was constantly taking an insane credit load and stressing out about it all. And, of course, she totally failed in "avoiding relationship drama", as she put it, and ended up with twice the stress. And given my recent doubts about my relationship with Ryan (more on that some other time), am I just trying to avoid having to spend time with him?
I've still got two months or so to figure this out, so...I guess we'll see.
Plus I sound like shit when I sing. *sigh*
